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Wednesday, June 27, 2007 I never saw it that way

7:48 pm

I came home today, and was actually really tired and was intending to just let myself fall into deep sleep in my bed the moment I got home, and my blog post today originally I intended for it to be about IR, and maybe I'll talk a little about it later. But it just happened to be the my sister's pretty close friend's boyfriend sat next to Thaddeus Cheong, and there was a blog entry on his blog that my sister told me to read.

Here's an excerpt:

Dear Thaddeus,

I’m sorry for not trying harder to help you chase that girl you liked,I’m sorry for not being there enough for you when she said no.

I’m sorry for not taking those few minutes to read through the letter you wrote for her,I pray that it was not my saying I’d read it another time that led to your not having it passed to her while you existed. I’ve just heard about its contents and am touched how you thought through and put in what we talked about.

I’m sorry for cancelling going fishing just before you passed on.

I’m sorry not having a chance to pass you the shirt I bought for you from Thailand,Because that’s how I intended to say thank you for the one you bought for me during your last trip.

I’m sorry for cancelling that floorball match you were looking forward to

.I’m sorry for not going with you to get that portable stereo for a dumb training.

I’m sorry for not replying that email about god.

Class isn’t going to be the same.

You were my closest friend there and about my closest friend ever.

I will do my best to help those you loved, i don't deserve your forgiveness but i will try my best to earn it.

Dude i cant believe it you fucking made the sea games squad, i remember our deal and i will keep my half of it.I keep this silly hope that you might see this.

Can’t, won’t forget you.

In memory of Thad,
thaddeus cheong 1990-2007.

It's pretty insane, and this post and the incident in general has made me re-think everything, how I've been living my life, how I should really cherish the people around me more.

I really can't imagine losing anyone around me in school now. Much as I hate alot of the things the school does, you guys are the ones who have helped make it alot more bearable.

Suddenly, I think who cares if I top the cohort and win every book prize there is to be won? There's lots more to life than studying and doing well, there's loving the people around you, and cherishing every moment you have with one another.

So although IR today was long and tough, and my brain is dry and drained, I'm extremely thankful I was fortunate enough to have Theo and Maehwee there with me, and really, I'm going to choose to believe that everything will turn out fine.