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"You haven't seen a tree until you've seen its shadow from the sky." — Amelia Earhart

take me to the sky

9:30 pm my tutor had his first day of housemanship today. and i just had a tiring day. and he said that it's good training for taking stess and i agree. and i'm very proud of myself for just starting to think rationally and objectively again. i mean if i think about it, i might be in extreme shit right now, but it's darn good training.

learning to deal with different things different emotions. when things are so shaky, little things might affect us alot. the teachers who teach us because they genuinely want to (or so we think) all seem to be leaving, they too seem to be getting tired. i think subconciously, i have grown to look to certain teachers, look to them for clues as to what the future might hold for me and all the rest of us here, and teachers leaving will definitely affect me. :(

i know my education should be independent of all this, but sometimes it's not so easy, just when you take more than a year to convince yourself that maybe, just maybe, the school is worth a shot, that there are people who genuinely have an interest in your education, and are not teaching you as a stepping stone, that there are teachers and friends who will walk this long and winding journey with you, that things have to start crumbling all over again, making the future seem ever so bleak. just what exactly is going on? i guess we'll find out soon enough.

i wonder what kind of a bomb mr ng is going to drop on us tomorrow. that he'd no longer be out mentor? that he's leaving the school? i sincerely hope it's not the latter because as much as i do not want to be saying this, i think he did quite a good job building my math foundation and i was hoping to at least do calculus under him. sigh. and he seems alot happier lately, after he took his little break. (: haha.

and let me say that i have so much respect for teachers who really really care for us. thank you, i guess if i was never put through this, i would never have looked at things this way.