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"You haven't seen a tree until you've seen its shadow from the sky." — Amelia Earhart

take me to the sky

2:08 pm I think I'm going to retire this blog. It's been three years, and 615 posts, and I love it, and I'll leave this here. I'll be at wordpress (i've joined willow and the intellectual gang). HAHAHAHA.

11:13 am There's a never ending list of things to be done, on a more myopic level, there's IR lit review, lots and lots of filing, the Fleming sign up sheets (and I refuse to fake birthdays and hopefully I won't have to), mechanics test to study for, Polar mindmap, exams coming up. Looking further into the future, there's research congress, FHT (the target's november), if I get beijing, that will end december 9th. Plus I haven't even factored in Mr. Lim's plan for me or rather the plan he says I need to have for myself. In addition to all that, I haven't been exercising. That is really REALLY disturbing.

I was slightly disappointed at myself for entertaining the thought of not going to an aunt's place because I thought I had too much work to do. I guess I do have quite abit to get done, but that doesn't mean I don't make time for friends and family, because afterall, they are the ones who will see you through all that you do, and they are the ones who will make all the pain worthwhile.

In the course of last week, John and I realised that next week will be our last official week of lessons. The thought is extremely daunting, that the year has just flown past, and what a roller coaster academic year it has been. With hostel, night lessons, APs, room mates, boyfriends, girlfriends, new friends, old friends, new perspectives, flying, the list goes on.

I initially decided that I didn't want to apply for Beijing since I wanted a break this holidays, but somehow, they ended up asking a bunch of us to apply, so with the approval of Tansk, I decided to go ahead and apply, and I think in the process just sold away all my days pre-beijing, which I don't mind. But that also meant that FHT will be november, which (worst of all) meant that flying stops in november. ): ): ): argh. I need to start finding a new anchor in my life.

Oh yes, well done john, the talk went good. :D

AND, thanks mh and hari for my belated birthday presents. I feel loved, and mh your card
makes me laugh everytime I read it, the way you do generally. :D

IF later. whoopeedoo.


No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it's scary as hell. If there's an upside to free-falling, it's the chance you give your friends to catch you.

1:50 pm Just got done with chem and math tests, both of which were passable (I hope >.<). School's been hecticness to the max these past few days, but been alright I suppose, thanks to lots and lots of friends who've been making it quite impossible to not enjoy it at least a teeny weeny bit. :D

Thanks to rachel, I am extremely tempted to start watching Grey's again, cause she keeps quoting the show, and now I am reading the quotes too and missing mcdreamy and mcspicy and whoever else.

A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

That's probably why I should not and cannot ever give up.

8:19 pm These few days have been particularly... turbulent.

It really is quite true that family is where you learn the most important of skills sometimes. I think staying in the hostel this past year has brought me closer to friends, but made me rather rusty at lots of skills I pick up from living at home. Having to deal and live with 6 other people is not something I've been doing alot of this year, that might be why all that happened, or maybe all of it was just to teach me how to love despite of, to look beyond a person's flaws and still be able to look for the best in him or her, and love him or her for who he or she is. All this happened to make me a better person.

Of course, also maybe it happens because it is very often through such situations that you appreciate the siblings and friends around you that much more. Thanks dajie and leeksus for being there, and johno for replying to my messages even at such queer hours of the morning.

flying tomorrow!

12:32 pm I can't believe I had that argument on saturday. It's been nearly 3 years, and we're still on that? I've definitely moved on, and I thought you did too, but apparently not.

It's strange really. Sometimes I really wonder.

6:04 pm to become different.

Some time back, Johno asked me if I thought he changed, and the conversation was rather thought-provoking. Everything that we discussed, and I guess we came to the conclusion that we're all changing, everyday, every minute, every second.

In the course of the week, there was a night of rushing English until 2 in the morning, and the earliest I slept was 1. Yiwei says she thinks it's cause I'm wasting some of my time, that that's why I'm left sleeping at that sort of hour every night, but somehow, (at this point in time), I don't think that's all that true.

I probably have been wasting my time in terms of not having spent all my time with the books (although I've been spending ALOT of time with them this week), but I don't find that it's a waste. I don't know, it might be harder on me now, but maintain friendships and relationships all take time. Time which we would have to take away from studying, but might be worthwhile cause when all this ends, they are the ones who are going to make life worthwhile.

(:

1:14 am While waiting for yanlong to finish up the stats report at this insane time of 1.15am, I shall catch 15 minutes to blog about a wonderful school life and how I'm coping.

It has been insanity since I got back to the hostel on sunday, when while waiting for renee to send me the english report, and studying for inorganic chem quiz, and attempting e and m homework, I slept at 2am, telling myself that it will be fine cause I will sleep early monday night since I was planned to fly on Tuesday.

Then, on monday, guess which genius when to check the met service which told her that there was going to be a 60% chance of thunderstorm on tuesday. So, I thought I won't get to fly, so decided to work into the night, finishing my group's english essay. It's not cause my group didn't help, most of them stayed up late to give me moral support I think. (x THANKS RENEE, for also sleeping even later than me to finish up the powerpoint. Hmm, so I went to sleep at 1.30am with a flight the following day and being as good as unprepared for it.

In the morning, sent out my sos sms to ziyang to ask for low level crash course, thanks kheezyy! :D Then school was just quite a blur, and in the end, because lux was sick we didn't present for english. I felt bleargh at that point.

Low level was actually not too bad, but short-field seems scary. :S I was very proud of my body for holding up after two nights of such generous amounts of sleep. It actually maintained rationality throughout the flight. I came back to school only to realise that the liberal arts talk which I signed up for was that night, and managed to catch up a little bit with hari. yay. (x AFTER liberal arts talk, it was off to the library for stats meeting, cause I project is due today. After which I went back up to my room to attempt to do the e and m assignment but ended up giving up more or less. Yesterday was more or less emotional low, but today has been a surprisingly good day. Despite e and m quiz, IR meetings, bleargh.

It has lots of memories that I guess I'd like to cherish I guess. Stuff that I'll miss next year. ): Firstly, when I stepped out of my room today, the first bell just rang, and there was quite a dash with maehwee across the field in order to save ourselves. (x

Then there was our sports quiz. fleming got second! Yay, well done hanisah, mr soh and yangxuan. :D my house is awfully quiet though. time to infect them and wake them up a little bit though.

Next thing was our usual wednesday outing. Although Weicheng didn't join us, there was johno and he was wearing the pink shirt we got him. :D clementi carrot cake also. yay.

Last thing that made me smile today. my dearest room mate and my attempt to eat a mango that her relatives gave her. (: It was hard you know why? It was sour and frozen, and we didn't have a normal knife. Hahahahahaha!

Yeap, it's been a long, tiring, good day. 1.42 am, we are ALMOST done with stats. Tomorrow after school will be spent at blood donation and studying for the organic chem test on friday. Friday after school will be spent at national dental centre, then studying for the polar test on saturday. saturday and sunday will hopefully be spent on flying, IR, family, friends. (x Studying for the tests in the following week, namely: inorganic chem test, stats test, chinese test... I think I am missing something. then the tests the following week: calculus based e and m, calculus based mechanics. ):

GO MEEE! (and everybody else mugging for end of years/promos)

3:13 pm Hmm, life is really quite short isn't it. So much has happened this past year, and it feels as though everything just started yet it's all ending. Met up with some of the 157 coursemates during open house that day. It's freaky to think that I'm beyond the halfway mark of flying. I'm FAR from having enough of it. *extremely tempted to want to join airforce to keep flying*, but all decisions have to be made carefully with much thought.

It REALLY seemed like yesterday that we were sitting in that briefing room being told all the stats and being shown our external checks for the first time, being fascinated by this yellow and blue machine that we were told we were going to *ahem* fly. It's so so fast.

Also, it seemed like not too long ago that the fourofus could fit into the back seat of any normal 5 seater car and still had space to want to beat one another up, but apprently we can't really do that anymore. (:

(everyone look at my cheesecake birthday cake. :D:D:D hahahaha, i know i'm being childish.)We are no longer the youngest in the big close extended family, as we were reminded today when we celebrated hanwei's 6th birthday, with plenty of little kids running around and my first time meeting baby marissa since her birth 3 or 4 months back.

Also, SERIOUSLY, wasn't it just like last week that we were moving into hostel? And we're like moving out soon? NOOOO, firstly, cause I'll like grow fat with home food everyday, and secondly cause I've really come to enjoy hostel, my room mate (and her never ending supply of food), frisbee with the guys, the convenience of walking 5 minutes to get to a bed from class, the luxury (yes it's a luxury when you actually should be learning things in school right) of meeting teachers in the evenings for consultations, IR convenience.

Okay, now time to do something from renee. it's some list of questions but apparently you can't post the question unless the person decides to do it then you can send the person the question, yeah, so I asked to see the question so now I have to do it.

1. Nobody
2. jiarong
3. nobody, i am quite contented in that sense. (:
4. kaiyuboy
5. the american kids from camp
6. lux
7. zelei
8. cherie
9. dajie
10. mummy
11. i can't think of anybody
12. uncle shane's horse?
13. hanwei (x
14. alot of people, but if I had to choose, yiwei (girly)
15. anybody really. It'd be funny
16. willow
17. yngwei
18. rach yew! (:
19. ziyang (other than when it involves physics)
20. john
21. mr bernard (for all those assignments)
22. mother theresa?
23. daddy
24. osama?
25. willow (not seems, she is good at it)
26. hahahaha, some blind man?
27. hmmm, i have no idea.
28. anyone also, it'd be funny too.
29. my bed?, i realised that's not a someone.
30. hahahaha, hello.

(:

HAHAHAHAHA, I forgot something really quite important: (nevermind cause he won't see this)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN!

Thanks a million for EVERYTHING